Monday, December 18, 2006

shaking depression

I haven't been practicing Yoga, haven't been meditating much for days. My son Eldar has been ill which has been my excuse for not going to my wife Lucia's classes. This isn't much of an excuse as I could have sent Eldar to the neighbors and paid them. He loves them and the benefit would have well been worth the expense.

To top this off, I haven't been working effectively. When I sit down at the computer my tendency has been to idle away at meaningless things, when there is a stack of stuff I could/should be doing.

But meditation and Yoga still have their place among my top priorities. I will meditate tomorrow morning, which is great. Then - with luck and determination and please wish me both - I will go to Lucia's Yoga lesson this Thursday.

So many things I would love to do. Among them is reading and commenting on Steven Lovy's new screenplay. I hung out with Steven this past weekend and wanted to run with him Sunday but didn't dare as Lucia was so upset with me for hanging out with him and not me on Saturday even though she was out with her girlfriends. After I massaged her and listened to her gripe for an hour late that night she loosened up. Sunday we went to church and out to lunch and saw the Nutcracker ballet performed that evening. Overall impressive performance. Great sets and great dancing. Choreography wasn't great. Most impressive stuff was early on and the story did not present itself as it could have. And the music was recorded rather than with a live orchestra. But this was the cheap performance despite its USD $18.00 per head ticket price including 7-year-old Eldar.

I've been worrying about money which is silly because we have some at the moment with more on the way. Bills to pay, too. And it's unclear when we'll be getting more. But life has always been uncertain. Better to live it. I could do well to plan for the holidays.

Sunday, December 03, 2006

Land of the midday moon

Back in Stockholm. I came up at the bequest of my lead client for his company Christmas party. This sits well with me as my supergood friend Adriano lives here so I'm able to hang out with him and stay at his place.

Adriano is apart from his two sons and their mother, his ex-wife. They live in the US, on Long Island. While it's very, very sad that the boys are now apart from their pop, it's also clear that Adriano is making a new life here and he loves his Swedish girlfriend, Carolin. She's lovely, plugged in, and very enlightened about how to live. We all had a great evening last night staying up until all hours eating chocolates, drinking tea and chatting about wonderfully nutty topics such as how Adriano should abandon his pursuit of an old school IT job and become a Reiki therapist.

This morning we had a swell Swedish breakfast, then they went off somewhere from which Carolin would depart to her home in some other part of Sweden. Meanwhile I went off to meet a lovely young Swedish woman whom I met through Hospitality Club. We walked round some swell Stockholm neighborhoods and then went to a Vegetarian cafe where we waxed long about varying topics such as arousing people's interest to blog entries by offending them or at least provoking them. Not by taking positions, but by posing questions. Unfortunately, all her entries are in Swedish. I asked her to accompany me to the Party on Tuesday. What a nifty afternoon. Bubbly feelings ever since. Walked to the Hilton afterwards to pee. It was just four in the afternoon, but well after dark. Went downstairs toward the WC to find a large glass wall behind which was a group of 15 or so people practicing Astanga Vinyasa Yoga. I watched a man in a downward dog that is much better than my own. I await more practice with Lucia, my wife the Yoga teacher I look forward to going to her lessons twice a week along with Eldar. He can do his homework in the next room and draw pictures. Could work. I bet it would be a net gain for everyone.